Nice Surprises

I am feeling a little sentimental today so try not to gag too much on this entry. It might be from my first yoga class that I took last night. Yoga is a little too "hippy" for me, but it is a nice change. The quiet time, concentrating on your body, listening to soft, instrumental music, the voice of the instructor so monotone and sweet. Who knows if that stuff really helps, but it did make me relax and think about how uncomfortable I am in quiet situations.

The point is nice surprises in life. We go through our days so routine and so numb to a lot of things, but there are some situations that really make you smile and get you all warm and fuzzy inside. I think a lot about people that I really loved and enjoyed at certain parts of my life and now for whatever reason we are out of touch. Sometimes I get sad to think that there are certain people that I might never see again or hear their voice, but there are others that pop up and give you a sense of a happy time in your life. I wouldn't say that I have had a lot of friends, but the friends that I have had were very high in quality. I am more of a quality versus quantity person. I was lucky to have friends that had quality and that I will always feel so close too whether we are in touch or not. They will always have a special place in my heart.

Other nice surprises are cards or calls from people that come for no reason other than they were thinking about you. I wish I did that more for other people, because I know how good it makes me feel. A couple of weeks ago I received a box from my dad and Patty and it had things from Grandma Rosa's house. That was a nice surprise, sad, but nice. It had all sorts of things in it that smelt like my Grandma, but the most touching one was a letter that they had found from me to Grandma. Grandma has been gone since November and the pain goes away a little everyday, but I never go a day without thinking about her. Seeing the letter from me to her was so emotional and made me realize that she is always with me. She taught me so much and gave me so much that she can never not be a part of me. I do have her red hair too, so that is one thing she gave me that always makes me think of her.

This particular letter was from 1996. We had moved to Amarillo when I was in 6th grade (which isn't far from Spearman where she lived, but it was huge considering I saw here everyday up until that time) so I would write her letters in order to tell her how much I missed her and how special she was to me. This particular letter did all that. It told her how much she meant to me and how much I appreciated everything she did for me and for everyone else. She was an amazing person and not just to her own family, but to everyone that she came in contact with. By her keeping this letter all this time of course made me feel very good and made me realize that even people like Grandma Rosa liked to receive letters about how much she meant to other people.

We all need to know that we are doing good for others and that we are loved. We shouldn't do things in order to receive the credit, but it is ok to get some positive reinforcement in our lives. We all have more good qualities than bad and each of us should look for the good and not the bad in others. And we should try and tell the people we love how great they are while we still have them. I was lucky enough to tell Grandma that, but I am not sure I do that for everyone in my life. That is my new goal in life, well for today it is. Tomorrow I might wake up in a bad mood and I will change my mind.

Everyone in my life has made some kind of impact on me. They have all helped me become who I am and I have taken pieces of them with me and I thank them all for that. They have all had something to give that is great.