Babes

Can't get enough of these two lately. And they adore each other.

My randoms

I thought it would be better to post my random photos instead of "not having enough time" to put a whole paragraph together.

Christmas pictures: 2 months late

I tried to post these pictures a month ago and it never worked. So, Christmas all over again!

Organic farm visit

We went to soperton, Georgia, for a photo shoot on an organic farm. Lulie had been chosen to be one of the baby models. When I talked to the photographer she asked if I would be willing to let Sallie Rose be photographed as well. So, we loaded up and drove 80 miles to an organic farm.

Kevin was not thrilled about going, but he probably had the best time out of all of us. The farm owners were so nice and the farm was very large and very interesting. They grow almost everything, except wheat. We all had the best time and hopefully we will get some great free photos of the girls out of the deal. We did get a large box of organic, fresh veggies. And they are delicious. Sallie Rose ate a whole carrot on the ride home. She loved it that much!

Being at the farm made me really long for my home and my Daddy. I wished we were in Spearman, Texas, and my girls were running around my Dad's fields being photographed. We will definitely do that soon.

Here are all the Photos I took. We couldn't take many since they were shooting them for a website, etc. hopefully, we will have some soon.

Love these girls

We have had a very busy 2013, mostly with illnesses, sadly. I am thinking we will get all of our illness out of the way now and be healthy the rest of the year! One can hope.

They both have been perfect, little, happy babies and I love them both more than I can stand some days.

Pre-k

Today, Kevin and I went to our first school tour. I was very sad the whole time. I am not ready for the beginning of real school, because then before I know it she will be 18.

Me: Sallie, we looked at a school for you today
Sr: "Big girl school?
Me: yes, but mommy was sad because I am not ready for you to go to big girl school. I don't want you to grow anymore.
Sr: ok mommy, I'll stop eating vegetables so I won't grow and you will be happy

I wish it were that easy. I wish I were not so sad either, I feel like I have lost my baby. I feel a little over dramatic too, but I am seriously crushed to think about her starting Pre-k. I can't decide if it is guilt of not being home with her everyday or if it is just natural. I wish I would have had the luxury to be home with her everyday since she was born, but it didn't work out that way. Poor Lulie, I feel like I am never home with her.

I just pray that she will be safe wherever she ends up for school.

Christmas time

One more week until Christmas Eve! I love Christmas for a number of reasons, but obviously I try to concentrate on the real meaning of Christmas. I have tried to remind Sallie Rose about what Christmas truly is for us. It is hard when you explain it and yet she still concentrates on how many gifts Santa will bring. I think having her participate in the church's Christmas pageant, attending Christmas Eve service, giving generous Christmas help to those less fortunate and thanking God in our prayers for the birth of Jesus will help. I can only hope.

Every year, I used to go home to Spearman for a week or so and I would take my Grandma Rosa Lee to look at the Christmas lights around town. It was something the two of us usually did alone. Then , she would send me in to get the remaining angels off the "tree" and go buy presents for all of them. She was the most generous person I have ever encountered. She didn't like the thought of a child not having something at Christmas to open. Then, most of our family would go to the Church and have communion on Christmas Eve. It was the most amazing part of my Christmas. Now that she is gone, I find myself sad about not having those traditions. Everyone is in different towns and have families of their own and in laws they have to spend time with. I miss her most of all. I think of her everyday, but I think about her even more at Christmas.

I put out her Santa figurines and try to do for others as she would do; however, I don't come close to doing what all she did. I take my family to look at the lights in town and think about how much she would love them. How can one woman make such an impact on a person's life? She was a devout Christian and she lived her life like one. It's hard for me to imagine that I could ever leave as much as an impact on someone's heart as she has mine. I hope that I will. I hope that I will not only love my own children/grandchildren, family and friends as much as she did, but also glorify God as I am doing it.

I would give anything to hear her voice again or give her a hug and kiss. I am so grateful to have loved her so much that is hurts. I pray for the families in Connecticut as they mourn the loss of their babies' lives that they can find hope in the Christmas season and the true meaning of Christmas, the promise that their babies are in an eternal life with Jesus and without pain.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Look at that poor baby! I promise she didn't cry except the last second when the lady snapped the photo.